i want to wait

either waiting is dumb

or you can have patience and feel numb

your not dead

just because you cant feel annoying dread

but are you alive

if youre frozen from your youthful insight?

i do not know whether or why

all i know is im not bored

and i dont try

so i wonder am i really waiting

if i am just waiting for waiting

for i long for that fleeting sensating aching

yearning burning deep inside

it never seems to last for i am broken

from self inflicted attacks

im trying to freeze frozen

so im no longer to feel my apathy greeting whats chosen

but instead as it comes to be

i am lost in grandiosity

instead of waiting

patience

can

see